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PERFECTION
       and all its simplicity

I am so exhausted. But last night was most definitely worth every second of lost sleep.

You know how sometimes you just know that everything is right with the world? You can feel it, and you're consumed with an immense happiness that is just completely indescribable, no matter how hard you try to put it into words? Everything is right with the world right now. And there is absolutely nothing that I would change. Every leaf on every tree, every fallen pine cone sitting on the ground, the way the sun was shining, the way it's setting now, the way the cool autumn air feels...the people I've been with, the movie we watched yesterday, the trip to A Mountain, the spilled hot chocolate...it's all perfect.

Mood: indescribable. In the good way.
Listening to: Stay With Me - Finch

I wrote my heart out. Friday, November 20, 2009. 5:29 p.m.


LEARNING
       really is something i love.

I'm sitting in the study room of Maricopa hall again. It's wonderful. The sun has just set...so it's still a bit light out.But the street lights are on. Tucson is absolutely beautiful. It's peaceful and quiet...and I'm feeling much more optimistic. I understand the content of the math test.... Of course, I'll keep studying. But I'm taking a bit of a break right now. Anyway, looking outside, I realize just why I love this place so much and why I love being out on my own. I feel much more confident. I still want a break, and I will admit to that. But...I feel like I remember why I love academics so much. I feel that same passion that I once had for learning and the attainment of knowledge. I wouldn't give this opportunity up for the world. School is me. It's my thing, it's who I am, and as sad as it is to say, it's a big part of what's defined me for the past 14 years of my life.

Or maybe I'm feeling all of this because I don't feel so physically ill anymore. I'm still coughing, and it's annoying.

Short pause from posting. A family came in to see the study room. They were polite...tried not to make too much noise :)

Anyway, off to study. Er...continue studying. More later!

Mood: tired.
Listening to: Silence.

I wrote my heart out. Saturday, November 7, 2009. 05:45 p.m.


RANDOMNESS
       and the monotony of the college life

Oh, the college life. Hm. That phrase seems oddly familiar. Maybe it's because the monotony of college life set in after the initial excitement and anxiety of the first two weeks died down. Not quite sure.

I have a calculus test that I really should study for. But I guess I'm enjoying some much-needed rest and relaxation for now. I like having roommates, and I enjoy being around people. But sometimes...I really need solitude...time that I can have all to myself without interruptions of any sort during study time, during sleep, or when I'm just relaxing. I think that's one of the things that I miss most about my pre-college life. I miss the ease of finding privacy and solitude. Right now, I'm spending some time in the study lounge on the third floor. It's nice; it's a Friday night, so naturally, no one is studying. I've found that Fridays and Saturdays are good days to use the room. And weekdays during the mornings. School night evenings...it's not crowded, but I'd much rather have the room to myself.

I've been sick for the past two weeks. JJ took me to UMC on Monday, and it turns out that I was starting to develop pneumonia. Go figure. Anyway, that being said, I've had to sleep in the daybed in our room rather than in the sleeping porch. It's horrible. Now I know why I love sleeping porches so much. I want to get over the cough already so I can sleep there without bothering anyone else.

Jey's been taking care of me while I've been sick. He's been so wonderful...making sure I take my medicine, making me tea and chicken noodle soup, monitoring my temperature and fever, keeping me under tons of covers so that I stay warm, waking up in the middle of the night to make me hot tea when I have coughing fits, taking me to the doctor.... Think about it. That takes a lot of time and effort. He's basically working full-time, and he's a student. Taking care of me on top of that at the risk of getting sick himself? I don't know how he does it. But I'm so grateful to him for everything. Maybe spending all that time together wasn't the best thing for me, though. He's in Phoenix celebrating his mom's birthday with the family right now...and I miss him already. It's not so much that I miss being with him...I saw him less than 24 hours ago. I think I miss him based solely on the knowledge that he's two hours away from me right now. Well, I guess that I really do want to be with him...I got used to seeing him so often because I've been so sick. And I've got at least another week of this cough to go, according to the doctor. Not that I'll need him to take care of me then. I'd just enjoy his company more than anything. You don't find many best friends like that <3

My family might come visit tomorrow. It's going to be wonderful! I'll spend some time with them in the morning, and then I'll study for my test and get some homework done in the afternoon...and then I'll spend some time with JJ in the evening. I might spend the night at his house to get to bed early and avoid sleeping in the sleeping porch...I'm not contagious anymore, but the cough is annoying. It still wakes me up at night, and if it does that, it's likely to wake other girls, too. Then on Sunday...JJ doesn't work! So we'll spend the day together...I'll get some studying done, and he and I can watch movies or something. Not quite sure yet about Sunday. But I definitely need to make sure that I study and get to bed early. And I need to remember to attend the All Soul's Parade on Fourth. Free points for TRAD, so why not? We already put in the effort of making the tombstone, so I figure that I might as well go for a few minutes to get the extra 15 points just for attendance. At this point, I'm desperate for points, as is everyone else.

Anyway, I think I want to read now. I haven't read a good book for fun and for the sake of reading in a long time. It's just no fun when you have to read for a class. Really. I just can't do it when I'm told to. It takes the fun out of it when you can't read for pure enjoyment.

Mood: sleepy and sick.
Listening to: Sweet silence.

I wrote my heart out. Friday, November 6, 2009. 09:02 p.m.


 

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Born as: Jennifer Lisa.
But my friends call me: Jenny.
Very special people use: Jen, Charizard, Princess, Little One, etc.
I tower at: 5'1"
And I have blown out: 18 candles.
Living in lovely: Southern Arizona ♥
I brush: Ebon black hair.
I see the world through: Mahogany eyes.
My blood is: Japanese and Mexican.
But my heart is: 100% American.

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Anime makes me happy.

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The rain is calming.
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Laughter cures all.
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I'm not too bright.
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